I suffer daily.
Maybe even hourly.
And yes, at times this has got me down majorly in which I have let it ruin my whole day, night and then the next day.
But, then I always get to one point where I cannot even remember what it was that got me down. I then think to myself, what the &%$£ was the point in getting down!
When I am down, there is no escaping it. I just shut down and no one can speak to me, help me or anything. As much as my partner try's to help me, I just do not let her in. This is the start of where I go wrong. I SHOULD let her in, I SHOULD let her know exactly what it is I am feeling. So that next time I start closing down, she see's the triggers and then knows what to say to help me.
The other thing which I have very recently started, and should've started along time ago is speaking to a councillor. I was always one of those 'talking is for girls' type guy. HOLY %&$^, was I wrong. Speaking about your problems over the years, months, days (however long you've suffered) to a person who is completely neutral and has no links to you whatsoever is just an amazing release.
We as men build up problems in our heads, then don't speak about them... and then move it to the side and allow another problem to settle in. This is just where we go wrong.
You wouldn't fill a cup that's already full would you, you would empty it and then fill.
We need to follow the same methodology as that, otherwise we just self destruct and take it out on the people we are close to. My partner has received a lot of negativity from me at times, honestly... I do not know how she has dealt with it, and why she is still with me. But she is. (THANK GOD.)
I have been told to try meditating by my councillor, again... I am hesitant as I am SUPER impatient and will probably get bored within seconds of sitting there. However, Because I am trying to progress in life, and become better I will be trying it. (Will report back on that at a later date... exciting right?)
Hope you all have a fantastic day, any issues. Please... email me and I can try and help out.
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